Simmonette Tan-When words become unclear, i shall focus with photographs

New Blog

2009-03-10T07:35:00.002+08:00

Hello all, I've moved to www.simmy-tan.com/blog . I will still keep this blog but won't update here anymore. So head over to my new blog if you want to see my updates.

Thanks all !

Happy Chinese New Year !!

2009-01-29T12:05:00.001+08:00

This is one of my favorite snack in Chinese New Year....Happy CNY my friends !

Will be blogging soon -_-

2008-12-11T16:39:00.001+08:00

Malacca

2008-11-05T14:04:00.002+08:00

Sigh, I don't even want to talk about why my bangkok trip tak jadi, AGAIN. Planning to go again next year, April. Already booked air tickets and such, hope this time jadi la.

Since we had extra few days in west coast, we went to Malacca instead. I wouldn't say it was a satisfying trip (aiya allow me to whine la my bangkok trip tak jadi, sobs sobs) but I did enjoy sight seeing around the area. Here are some photos to share :

We bumped into a photography outing group on the day we arrived, I thought this photographer was interesting because he composed and stay there for quite a while (making HDRs??)

There's definitely alot alot of red/maroon in Malacca

Abit sad isn't it? The street was so quiet...so was the temple, and she was sitting all alone.

Love love love this tattoo parlour ! Too bad it was closed. By appointment only.

Our flag

We then proceed to the St. Paul's Hill, it was raining as we were going up, therefore i didn't take many photos.

Beautiful texture, I want to clone stamp this and make this a texture.

That pretty much sums up my Malacca trip !

Kazillion things to blog

2008-10-16T13:26:00.003+08:00

I wouldn't necessarily say that these past 2 weeks were busy but there were certainly alot of things going on and I'm just trying to finish up whatever work on hand before I depart for my Bangkok-KL trip this coming Saturday. And I did ! (Sorta). I still have another half day shoot tomorrow and then off I go. Honestly speaking, I'm more eager to go home and meet my family in KL instead of going to Bangkok. I must say I prefer road trips instead of travelling to another country. Unless I really have alot of cash, then I probably wouldn't mind. :)

Tung Sing and Angel's wedding (Sarike-Sibu). Just two of my favorites of the children in their wedding.

[Alfred and Samantha's wedding]. I've been anticipating for this shoot because I know how much Samantha value these photographs. I've shot some [pre wedding] photos for them too.

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Then there's [Kelvin and Xue Qing's wedding] too. It was only later I found out that Kelvin is very good at badminton. (I'm a badminton fanatic as well)

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Ricky and Shierly's wedding (I'm trying to squeeze as much as I can in this blog post). Absolutely good looking couple ! Ricky is actually from Si Chuan China, they actually met each other when they were studying in US.

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Spilled some on my lens, too.

Siew Keong and Eileen's pre wedding shoot. Finally finished retouching this set. Another good looking couple. Both working in Miri now. I'm looking forward to shoot their wedding day in December.

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I love this series overall. I have to thank them for willing to participate in my crazy idea of shooting at odd locations.

My good friend [Jeanie], she really left for good. We had a farewell party for her. We did a serie that can relate to how she feel sometimes. Don't you agree that we all just need brand new start at some point of our life?

Jeanie and I probably started off on the wrong foot. We didn't get along when we first get to know each other. Time has proven me wrong. I've grown to like this person, I like her honestly, I like her boldness, I love her strengths and I also love her vulnerabilities. I am sad that now I can't see her as often as I like to, I know I've probably would never say this to her face to face but I truly enjoyed her companionshp while she was here. So I wish you all the luck in the world girl, don't forget you will always have us to back you up over here.

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There's so many other things I wan't to blog about too. I now can bake, too ! (can't believe I can do such girlish thing) Thanks to Jeanie.

I will make another blog post when I'm back, so 'till then, take care !

Closer

2008-09-25T11:55:00.004+08:00

"It's a lie"
"It's a bunch of sad strangers photograph beautifully and all the glittering assholes who appreciate art say it beautiful cuz that's what they wanna see. But the people in the photos are sad, and alone, but the pictures make the world seem beautiful. So, the exhibition really assuring. Which makes it a lie, and everyone loves a big fat lie."

Quote Natalie Portman in Closer

I love this picture so much.

And Natalie Portman is so so so beautiful.

不如意的事情，是时候离开我们了

2008-09-24T14:19:00.004+08:00

最近好像很常发生倒霉的事情啊。。。环绕在我和一群朋友们之间。

Lin的车子昨晚竟然不见了！而且，同一个晚上， Kenny的钱包也弄丢了。。怎会那么衰？

其实我很想打电话给Lin慰问她一下，但是我想，如果是类似的事情发生在我的身上。。我不会喜欢一直听到别人重复那件事情，就算是纯粹安慰也好，也一律免了。

她驾的车子是一款旧款proton saga，这两天刚好alarm坏了，就这么巧昨晚就被人给偷了。

是巧合？还是熟人所为？让人不免怀疑。

唉，总之，我希望这些倒霉的事情赶紧离开我们吧！我不想看到朋友不开心。

还有更离奇的事情，昨晚我回到家开了MSN和姐姐聊天，姐姐告诉我，我婆婆见鬼了！（是真的见鬼了）。还是在自己住了很多年的家看到的。。吓得她半死。我听了之后很惊讶，因为婆婆以前每次都告诉我说，如果你平时没有做亏心事，遇到鬼也不用怕。可是现在她竟然吓坏了，婆婆，你不对哦！你一定是有做亏心事吧。。哈哈哈。。。（我这是苦中作乐。。。）

最近治安每况愈下，可能不是鬼。。而是想进来偷东西的贼也不一定。。。hmm..

Patrick and Yien Ling's Wedding

2008-09-16T10:14:00.006+08:00

I feel so sleepy now, I slept around 2am last night and woke up 7am this morning. I got a batch of photos completed this morning and now I am more at ease. So many batches stacking up, let me post some of my favorite shots from Patrick and Yien Ling's Wedding last month.

I like the curves on this shoes, simple and nice.

A very moving speech by the groom, alot of the audience got teared up during this moment. Even I did.

The little boy melts your heart, doesn't he? So adorable.

Coming up will be my Bintangor trip !

Amusing

2008-09-08T16:21:00.004+08:00

I don't know why i find this picture amusing. Haha, i just love the expressions on their faces. What happened was I thought this kid look cute so as usual I point my camera at him, he imediately shy away, and look at his grandmother. His grandmother on the other hand thought he did something annoying (I assume, making faces at me or something) so she stared at him fiercely. Haha, his expression was as if he was telling his grandma : "I didn't do anything !". I just love it.

Project Runway

2008-08-28T22:35:00.003+08:00

I'm a Project Runway fan.

I do not know much about fashion...i enjoy watching the show simply because i love the creating process.

I was watching Project Runway Australia on youtube, and surprised to see a Malaysian designer on the show. His name is Lui Hon Wee Min and he's Malaysian living in Australia.

He is very very talented. I didn't manage to see our own Malaysia Project Runway, sad, my best friend Quin won second place and her final collection is simply breathtaking. Anyway, let's not get away. Lui has got a very distintive style, his work is very youthful and i like his attention to details. He got to the top 4 now and i'm waiting for them to post newer episodes. I certainly hope he get all the way to top 3. Make us proud, we need this !

This is Lui, quite good looking in my opinion. He seem like a really nice guy on the show. Very polite and timid.

I super love this dress. The theme was 60s. I know it looks pretty ordinary here...but the details on the back and sleeves is so amazing...can't find any other picture so settled for this.

I also love this design, it's sort of his signature work. Layers. But i find it awfully similar to Jay Mccaroll's (Project Runway US season 1 winner) work. Maybe because of the headphones, i don't know. The judges said something like :"It seems like you need a user manual just to put this outfit on." Heck, life is boring, we need something like this to make our life more interesting, don't you think? If not, why "FASHION" exists?

Go Lui, I wish him the best of luck !

Happy Birthday to you guys

2008-08-25T07:35:00.004+08:00

I love this guy's rendition of Maroon 5's [Sunday Morning]. What a voice. Such attitude.

Kenny celebrated his birthday at the comfort of his own house

His sister so generous..bought him an authentic Louis Vuitton wallet...(i think cost atleast 3k, so envious)

Ofcourse, a photo with the handsome lad

This little girl too cute

Following by Ah Bing's birthday the other day, at this restaurant called 台湾美食

Awesome food as usual

Everybody was having a great time

Photo of the loving couple...愿你们永远恩恩爱爱，幸福快乐。

Slog + Joan - Breath

2008-08-21T07:45:00.002+08:00

Finally ready for viewing.

(Is the dress really weird looking? It looks pretty okay to me. If she is shorter perhaps it wouldn't look good)

I did the overall styling and makeup too.

Layout version :

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Behind the scene...

2008-08-20T09:43:00.002+08:00

Due to the workload i haven't manage to finish post process this set yet...but soon will release it.

Meanwhile i thought this is funny..so i purposely snap him in the frame..

and the "actual" frame later...

Slog was my model cum assistant that day 'cause i was shooting alone...poor guy he even had to carry ladder for me. Thank you very much.

And is the dress pretty?

Alfred and Samantha (Pre Wedding)

2008-08-16T07:59:00.004+08:00

I think this has to be the shortest session yet, the shoot was done about 1 hour+. The sun sets pretty quickly and before we know it, it was already very dark. But i am glad that i got the shots i wanted, i hope they enjoy the photos as well.

Looking forward to shoot their wedding in September, [this] is their wedding website. (was happy to see that they selected one of my favorite photos to feature on the front page yay)

I am listening to John Mayer, Gravity (acoustic version), such a nice rendition. Check it out [here]

Andrew's Surprise Party

2008-08-14T22:09:00.003+08:00

I'm back ! Before i resume to my work...let me make a blog post first.

(Note : Beware of crappy pics ahead ! Had too little time to shoot, and my friend hasn't emailed me the pics yet. Why they never email one la)

Let's talk about Andrew's 33rd Birthday !

This was not the first surprise party for him, if i remember correctly, i organized atleast 3-4 surprise party for him. You would think since i do it every year, he won't be surprised anymore. Well, I have to say with some help from my friends, this party turns out to be a rather successful (minus a few incidents here and there) one.

Venue :
The new Le Ark Cafe was an obvious choice for me. I just looove the design of the building. Andrew and I passed by it couple of times and we were always saying once it opens we will go and try their food. Well, it did open officially and once i've found out, i immediately made reservations with them.

Food :
Buffet style

Cake :
I didn't want ordinary cake, (not my style). I actually wanted Cupcakes, but i don't think there's any bakery in Sibu makes decorative cupcakes. So i settle with these choco waffles (not sure if this is the correct name)

Guests :
We really have a large group of friends, especially those that play badminton with us almost few times a week. But i can't invite them all due to budget issue, so i nailed it down to 20 person, mostly close friends, including some of his personal friends too.

Theme :
The space they offered us for the party was on the second floor, and it's an open air area facing the Rejang River. With dim lights, it really looks like we're on the beach ! (pathetic, i know) So, the theme was ofcourse Hawaiian !

Dress Code :
Casual, colourful, easy ! Hawaiian !

My friend Shun was incharge of deco for me, but he was away in KL until the day before the actual date of his birthday. I must admit i was very anxious and i thought we couldn't get things done perfectly since we had such time crunch. On the day itself, i left them plan on the deco. Andrew had to work that afternoon and i resume my normal routine which was badminton game. (I didn't want him to suspect anything la)

I asked them to lay some coconut tree leaves on the table, but what they did was far more than that. They even weaved a flower necklace for Andrew using wild flowers gathered in Jeanie house. Jeanie's father was so kind, he was the one that used a parang knife and cut the tree leaves for us. And all of it costs ZERO.

I want to thanks Jeanie and Shun for the planning, and everyone else for helping on the deco, i don't care what he thinks, but i really loved the atmosphere when i stepped in. I was stunned !

Flaws:

On the day of the event, both Sibu and Kuching had a massive blackout, it happened around 6.30pm, lasted 'till about 8+ (i think). The venue was set on 8pm, but Andrew wanted to go out earlier due to the blackout, ofcourse he thought we were just having regular dinner on our own. The original plan was, they sing birthday song upon our arrival. But when we got there, they were still decorating the place. I remember Andrew was telling me :" Eh other people are having party, we better enter from another side". Yes, he was very very surprised when he saw familiar faces, imagine the look on his face, priceless !

There were only 16 people at the party, the rest never showed up. I guess they were too busy to inform me. (apa lah i wasted all the food la, ofcourse i mad)

The bakery charged me extra RM 30 just to rent the three tier steel rack as opposed to the original :"Oh we only collect deposits." statement. But i manage to bargain and they have returned me RM 15.00. Not too bad.

The cakes are way too sweet !

Photo taken by Simon, further edited by me, hahaha.

Nonetheless, it was still a very special night. The most important thing was probably spending it with the company of such wonderful friends.

PS : And oh best dress goes to Kenny ! (the one holding coconut beside Andrew) . He didn't even wear shoes to the party ! So Hawaiian right?

Going to Kuching tomorrow

2008-08-10T19:17:00.002+08:00

I want to blog about Andrew's birthday celebration yesterday but i am still waiting for the pictures from my friends. Also i'm going to Kuching tomorrow morning, will be back by Thursday. I guess i'll write a complete post by then !

Sneek peek

The non conventional "Cake"

Look at the beautiful set ups...i owe it BIG time to my friends...it was FABULOUS. And it was all done within 1 hour time.

Andrew was really really surprised and all of us had a splendid time...it was such a special day. My days of planning pays off !

More on the next post.

Ads....

2008-08-08T17:21:00.002+08:00

Quick post : I'm getting really really annoyed when browsing blogs because of all the ads ! I'm fine with graphics but there's this stupid Nike ad that makes sounds whenever i'm blog hopping and it annoys the crap out of me...(is it a nuffnang thing?)

blek !

Housing Roadshow

2008-08-01T20:26:00.000+08:00

The first Sibu Housing Roadshow organized by Sheeda and Veto Event Management was also my first official event shooting.

When Jessica and Jamie (from Veto) approached me to be their photographer, i was very concerned. Shooting events is not really my forte, i was afraid that i might not be able to deliver a good job. Honestly there was also something else that bothers me : I was afraid that it may not have much room for me to express my creativity. And if i did it my way, will they like it? Most event photos i've seen are rather flat and boring, taking pictures of local politicians smiling and shaking hands? -_-. No, confirm not my thing at all.

When i express my concern with them, Jamie kindly reassured me that they recruit me because they thought my pictures will be great for their portfolio, and that i can shoot 'my way'. They are very kind people indeed, so i took the job as a challenge and it has proven to be a very good experience for me.

I took alot of photos throughout the event, but i'm just going to post some of my favorites here. Just for the record. ;) (no pictures of Datuk here hahaha)

Setting up, i think this worker brought along his son or something, this little guy was very very helpful !

Reflection on the elevator

The grand opening was scheduled on 11-ish, i arrived around 9am

A gift to the grand VIP, YB Datuk Robert Lau

This was actually shot on the last day of the event, Jessica wanted some crowd photos so i went there and snaps.

Lunch session, remember the mango duck?

Albert and Elizabeth (Bridal Photos re-shoot)

2008-08-01T07:04:00.002+08:00

Yes more weddings !

This is actually a re-shoot session for Albert and Elizabeth because they actually already married and did their bridal shoot in Kuching sometime ago. We had abit of difficulty at first, i've arranged 2 sessions in a weekend but it didn't work out because on the 2nd day, the weather was really moody and foggy. Then we postphoned it to the following Sunday. I'm glad things work out fine after that. Sometimes weather is such a biatch and i just want to strangle myself. -_-

Gorgeous sunlight

This turn out to be my favorite favorite shot, love the texture on these rocks.

We passed by this gorgeous flower field and i just had to shoot here, thank you Uncle for giving permission ya.

Andrew being the perfect asistance as usual :)

I climb the tree to get this shot.....NOT ! LOL

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Random happy things

2008-07-27T18:17:00.000+08:00

I've just realized i never posted any food photos here..how come !!!!!!!!!! I eat so much and never even posts about them ! Cannnoot ! 太对不起它们了！

I do take food photos and i stacked them in a folder and whenever i'm hungry i just look at 'em..LOL

Mango duck, splendid lunch treated by Jessica who recruited me to shoot for an event they organized.

Another course...

We now have 1920 hotdog in Sibu now

Beef with rice, RH Hotel, ate this when we had a 1 night stay there. (Promotion for RH staff)

erm i think this is orange juice, can't remember

Sea coconut with pineapple! I think RH hotel is the only place that serves this desert. Cannot compare with KL standard la, but better than dun have.

I'm off to shower, we just won a badminton competition and the losing team is supposed to treat us KFC leh..so happy

Quick Post

2008-07-23T18:28:00.000+08:00

I am going to post some pre wedding photos here once i get everything together...(too many photos to process). Meanwhile, here's a little preview.

My recent favorite...just love the soft expression...can definitely feel the love between them

Hiew and Lilian's Wedding

2008-07-17T08:17:00.001+08:00

I've been wanting to blog about Hiew and Lilian's wedding for so long ! I shot their wedding last month and i just couldn't stop telling everybody how articulate and well organized the wedding is.

Hiew, being a project manager himself, is naturally good at planning events and functions. So it's no surprise that he took charge of every details. From selecting bridal studio to door gifts for guests, yes the bride didn't have to worry about anything !

These are actually fake rings, i shot this before their wedding at Hiew's house

Their invitation card

Hiew has very good taste, i absolutely love his choice of vehicle.

Lilian's dinner dress, all of the above shot before the actual day.

Finally the day arrives, shot through the window

Gorgeous

Yes i love the hands thing, i think hands are very expressive

Lilian's mother

Her bouquet, when i hold it i had a slight shock because it was so heavy !

Hiew, handsome groom

Arriving at the church

How could the night end without a toast

This thurn out to be my favorite shot of all

I've put up some other photos in the online gallery, [have a look here]

Stanley and See Ching's Wedding

2008-07-09T08:23:00.001+08:00

Check out G Love and Special Sauce - My Baby's Got Souce - Such a groovy song, makes you want to dance !

I've posted his wedding car the other day..here are some of my favorite shots

I love See Ching's teeth..imperfection makes perfection. ;)

Putting on gold is a very important culture for chinese weddings here.

Another closeup of her wearing veil, love this shot too

Another personal favorite

The bride and groom ;)

I don't know what happened there...

The brothers...

The making : Alfred and Samantha Prewedding shoot

2008-07-07T12:21:00.000+08:00

Right after the last day of Borneo Culural Festival, i had a pre wedding shoot on the following afternoon. Andrew took some the making photos for me using using our trusted little Nikon Coolpix 3700. (Hey, don't expect too much from this 3.2mp camera,thou)

These two is my favorite ! I'm the one wearing pink, Lisa, the makeup artist for the day, was behind my back catching a shot too. I like the composition of this, haha.

And this !

I have to thank Alfred and Samantha for willing to go through all the hassles for the shoot, it was a short session but definitely wasn't an easy one. I shall post the photos soon once they are ready !

Inspiration : Francesca Woodman

2008-06-30T07:54:00.000+08:00

18sx, 未成年的人不要看哦。。。

看了Francesca Woodman的照片，让我感觉好震撼。。。一个那么年轻的女生，从作品中表达出来的思绪，怎么会那么沉重呢。

再加上她在踏入20岁时选择跳楼来离开这个世界，更令她短暂的生命，笼罩着一股浓浓的神秘感。

看完了她的作品，有种言语说不出来的沉重，也不知道如何解释那种心情。

谁是Francesca Woodman?

Thank you

2008-06-30T07:25:00.000+08:00

我朋友们第一天就过来看我了，（当然不是看我啦。。只是顺便而已，哈哈哈）。真要谢谢他们。

迟些再把其他照片post上来，现在要赶工了。

文化节好多东西吃，我都还没有时间一一去看呢：（呜呜呜，谁有过来的话买些请我吃吧。哈哈哈哈

Things change

2008-06-28T11:47:00.000+08:00

Yes things do changes.

Last night after we finish packing up and left the booth, we went and join our friends for supper. Some chit chats and conversations led Ah Lian asked us how do we know each, how long we've been married, etc. And surprise surprise, i don't even remember how long we've been married ! Infact, both of us came up with different answers. Andrew said 1 year, i said 2 years, honestly i wasn't really sure. I've forgotten completely about it.

I used to care about such details : like when did we start dating officially, the date we engaged, the date we registered...I cared so much that i wanted him to care, too. But now, i couldn't careless. Is that a bad sign?

On our way home, i told him, maybe i should make a blog post about all the details, so that we can look back from time to time, to remind ourselves all the hardships we've been through to be together. (yes, painful memories) But i don't even know where to start, because i forget, because i couldn't care to remember. And memory just slips away, how cruel.

Maybe it's my social life that's getting me, i love my friends so much, sometimes i even prefer to spend time with them than with my husband. LOL. Yes that's true.

I'm on local newspaper today

2008-06-27T10:34:00.000+08:00

Yes !! I am so surprised to see the artical being posted inside a [local forum] that i frequent, i didn't even know myself, i thought it was going to be publish next week. Thanks to my friend Burgerling for the feature, and i hope i am good enough to be featured. (that's for the viewers to decide)

Side note, [My45.net] sponsored me a small space to display my photographs at their booth at the Borneo Cultural Festival, it starts today, if you are from Sibu, please stop by and visit. I will be there starting from 6-10pm throughout the festival. The prints look really good !!! (i laid them on the floor the other day and looked at them for a long period of time..hahahah)

I gotta run for now, take care and have a nice weekends everybody.

Wedding

2008-06-16T13:59:00.000+08:00

Yea i've finally changed the banner on my blog..it's Lisa up there, now say Hi. :P I miss you gurl, hope we'll have another chance to work together in near future.

I've finally completed a wedding set today, but this client of mine prefers to remain anonymous, therefore, i am not posting their set on my website as portfolio. However, i have couple of highlights to share here on my blog, most without faces, ofcourse. ;)

These are some of my favorite images of the set:

Love love love this shot...so delicate..so beautiful

I just had to shoot this, gorgeous accessory.

Noise worked well for this particular shot.

This church has a very nice nostalgic feeling about it, and i love the glass panel as background, absolutely stunning. I didn't shoot much here because the church rules for photography is quite strict. :(

Yes, raining, more fun i guess?

Another favorite shot of mine...i love sihouette pics like this. The red umbrella added a very nice contrast to the whole image. I did selective black and white on this photo. The black background on both sides aren't photoshoped.

I love this moment when i can photograph freely with no disturbance at all...it was so quiet and serene.

I want to say thank you to Jean (who introduced this couple to me), also their friends whom took care of my bags for me. Kind people still exists these days. ;)

Stanley Carter's Wedding

2008-06-13T12:25:00.000+08:00

Today is the famous and 'handsem' friend of mine, Stanley's wedding...an incredible multimedia artist and drifter (for real !) goes by the name Stanley Carter because of a drift game he invented (too bad i've forgotten the link, i shall post it later on). Ofcourse, it's an hounour for me to witness their wedding too

This is his youtube, check out some of his drifting videos [here]

It's fun to shoot friend's wedding, as opposed to other wedding assignments i usually do. Simply because you can relate to the couple more.

Normally i work alone, therefore i drive myself. But today i have Lien fetched me from bride's house to groom's house, and it was extremely helpful because Stanley mentioned that i must take more photos of the car...i shot alot of frames leaning out of Lien's car window on the road, dangerous but fun fun fun !

Teaser : The classical zoom burst effect

PS : Anyone in Sibu saw us on the street this morning? :P

This is his wedding car for the special day, damn chun, i think it's called evo something (sorry i don't know much about cars, but erhmm, nice color?)

Still have banquet to cover at night, i am going to bed now (it's 12.35pm) to get some nap, perhaps regain some energy for later on.

“昏”纱

2008-06-11T18:56:00.002+08:00

Desmond and Ivy [Bridal]

Finally completed this set...

Many many more to come....(please dont rush me, 慢工出细活, :P)

Stressing out

2008-06-11T13:00:00.000+08:00

I am stressing out now.

I have so much to do, but instead of completing the tasks, i am sitting here blogging.-_-

There are alot of things going on, and i am planning something which i can't quite tell you yet, (when the time is near i will), and i hope eventually everything turns out right.

And lately i've been contemplating whether it's possible for me to go back to school and study more. Perhaps i can still work freelance to earn the tuition fee? Who knows. Perhaps i can study art, photography or even language (which i've always wanted to do). Or maybe, i can pick up where i left off, go back and study GD instead (maybe i'll like it this time? LOL)

Maybe i'll start saving money now instead of spending all i have ALL THE FREAKING TIME.

My passion rarely goes away if i truly like something, sometimes i switch simply because i've made the wrong choice. In life, it's all about choices.

I'm still young, i am allowed to make choices. I should probably savor the priviledge.

So why am i wasting my time? What is holding me back?

I guess you know.

他们“应该”知道

2008-06-10T07:32:00.000+08:00

昨天我们和Frankie他们打羽球了，通常我们是打2,4,6的，但是因为他们那边有空档，所以我们就过去了。

很巧很巧的是昨天遇到【他】了，看他的部落格也有好长一段时间了，（虽然中间他MIA过）。本来还不打算打招呼，因为只有我见过他他没有见过我，我不好意思嘛。哈哈哈。加上整身汗臭味（我想只有我亲爱的羽球朋友们才能忍受吧）。后来因为Andrew太太太八卦了，压抑不住，所以走前去自我介绍，后来我们才打招呼。

他真人样子很baby face, 比实际年龄小许多。看起来算是蛮健谈的一个男生吧。有时候可能人家知道你是他们的blog reader, 所以没有什么好隐瞒的吧？

Anyway, it was very nice meeting you, Huai Bin. ;)

继续～

打玩两场羽球后， Paul和他的女朋友不知怎的吵了起来。 Paul应该是不爽他女朋友很多粒开的球都接不到吧？一直不断的在旁边碎碎念，说什么“我教你你就要听”的话。他女朋友应该是生气了吧，东西一拿就走了。当我们打好之后驾车离开一段路，半路看到他女朋友在走路回家。那时候天色蛮暗了，我就告诉Andrew叫他打电话给Paul告诉他一声，然后Andrew就回答我了： “不用吧，他们应该知道了。”

他就是那样子的一个人。

我静止了一会儿，然后问他：“我可以和你说一些人生道理吗？”

(imagine a 23 year old preaching a 33 year old)

他点头。

“你知道就因为你一句话，如果那女孩出了什么事情，你会愧疚一辈子的。有很多时候，我们只需要做很简单的一件事情，就能避免意外发生了，为什么不呢？

就算他们真的也是知道了，我们也只是打个电话，求个心安理得而已。现在治安那么坏，她一个女生要是在路上发生什么事情，我们如何对得起自己的良心？”

他点头，说是是是（不甘愿的说法），然后才播电话。

我知道他还是不认同我，这只是为了避免接下来更多的争执，所以他才会打电话。

我多么希望他明白我为什么会执着。不过看来要他了解我的想法，比登天还难。

有时候我们就是因为袖手旁观，所以引发了很多意外。其实大部分时间我们只是需要做很简单的一些事情，就能够避免了，可是我们整天以为：“人家知道了”。所以没有去做，没有去说。东窗事发后， who's to blame?

虚拟的爱情

2008-06-06T08:49:00.000+08:00

虚拟世界的爱情，信得通吗？

我不能了解，没有见过面的，顶多也算是fling吧？算是relationship吗？

网上谈恋爱已经不出奇了，现在还有人用电话来和另一头的人“谈恋爱”，完全没有见过面就称彼此为“宝贝， honey, sweetheart" 之类的了，真是无奇不有。

我身边有一位朋友，就有如此的经历。

你不要以为我这位朋友条件不好，所以才用电话来谈恋爱，他的条件远比现在很多男生都好多了。外貌不但出色，有稳定的工作（帮爸爸打工的），性格良好，无不良嗜好。年龄比我小些，大概20岁出头吧。但是没有现代年轻人的浮夸，有礼貌，有风度，一等一的好青年。

他和这位没有见过面的女生用电话来谈恋爱大概也有一段时间了吧！和我们一起的大部分时间，他都是不断的在sms的，很多时候他都是接了电话，或者是看了讯息，会突然变得很郁闷很伤心的样子。我们猜想他是和电话另一头的那个“她”吵架吧！我不明白的是，这段“电话恋情”，为何杀伤力那么大？面都还没有见过就把这份感情看得那么重？如果见面了发现她并不如你所想象的怎么办呢？分手吗？

我也曾经问过他，为什么没有把人家约出来。他说他也很努力的想要说服这位女生出来见面，大概是她还不想见他吧。为什么呢？你都把人家当男朋友了。。。还不能够见面要等什么时候哦？？如果她一辈子都不出来和你见面，怎么办呢？总不能透过电话结婚吧？

这样子虚拟的爱情，算是“真正”的爱情吗? I don't get it.

明天会更好

2008-05-29T08:33:00.001+08:00

无意中被我看到这个，分享下，希望你们会喜欢。

其实Avril音乐拉阔的版本比original的好听多了。

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
yeah I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today...

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
yeah, it's a different day,
tomorrow,

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just don't

Give me a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow,tomorrow
its a different day

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

Tomorrow... it may change

妈妈

2008-05-27T21:59:00.001+08:00

我对我的妈妈印象很模糊。。。我并没有任何她的记忆。。

从小到大，我姐姐常常会骂我，她常说妈妈最疼的就是我，我怎么可以一点关于她的记忆都没有。

我妈妈在我4岁的时候就离开这个世界了，她得了癌症。那个时候医学并不昌明，妈妈身体不妥并没有看医生，一直拖到最后癌症末期了，流血不止我爸才送她去医院。那个时候，到了医院把医生护士们都吓坏了，他们拒绝收留我妈妈。我爸爸在医院门口大发脾气，他们才收我妈妈。可是，那个时候，我妈妈也仅剩一口气了，没有撑得很久。临死前，我听我阿姨说她不停的叫我爸爸抱我给她看，甚至到她离开的那一霎那，并没有放开我。

可是，我对不起她，因为我记不起她。四岁以前的回忆我真的完全没有印象。我记得，和表哥表妹们骑脚踏车，用milo罐来“煮饭仔”，中秋节烧伤了屁股，我养过的小猫和小狗。。可是妈妈，我就是记不得你。妈妈，不知道你会怪我吗？

爸爸留了很多你的照片，泛黄的相簿上，你的签名依旧清晰可见。你写得一手好字，还在相簿上提了些诗词。婆婆到现在提起你，眼眶还是会泛红的。她很疼你，你书念得好，样子清秀漂亮，可是，她说你不听话，因为你和爸爸相爱。爸爸那时候是个典型的流氓，也不知道为什么你们会相遇，相爱，虽然遭到周围人的抗议，但是你们最后还是结婚生子。爸爸也因为你，改变了许多，他变得有责任感，爱屋及乌。很多亲戚朋友们见到我，提起成年往事，总会告诉我爸爸是多么的宠爱你。你们俩为了持家，辛苦存了一笔钱买了块地来造窝。你就是因为日熬夜熬，熬坏了身子也不告诉爸爸。妈妈，屋子后来起好了，可是，你在哪里？爸爸不知道是否对屋子存有怨恨，他把屋子出租了也不要自己住。我想，爸爸是怕触景伤情。

妈妈，你知道有很多时候，我也对你有怨恨吗？我怨，为什么人家有妈妈照顾，我没有。我恨，别人的家庭那么完整，妈妈，你在我的记忆里很模糊。。可是妈妈，我很想你。我每天都幻想，如果妈妈你还在世上会有多好，我们一家人的日子会多么的幸福美满。

妈妈，妈妈，这个称呼对我来说是多么的奢侈。在天国的你可好？你会是我身边的那个守护神吗？

奇怪的脚

2008-05-27T08:55:00.001+08:00

我的脚踝最近里面好像长了个小瘤，之前肿起来一块，后来听我朋友说是因为“筋肿”。叫我要不时拍拍它，让血液流通。她说通常是老年人才会有这种毛病的。

ORZ, 冒冷汗-ing, 难道我是老年人吗。。我才“芳龄”23而已。

这几天我惯性的拍打那个部位，按啊，压啊，企图把它压下去。后来我发现一件很有趣的事情，就是那粒东西会移来移去的leh ! 每次我按下去的时候，它好像真的会下去，我摸来摸去发现真的好想扁了。可是过一阵子，它好像又会浮上来，啊？？为什么那么奇怪？怎么会流动型的呢？？？令我百思不得其解。

不知道有人知道什么原因吗？毕竟我的science是fail的。。。。LOL.

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对了，顺便提下，我终于在这边找到我最爱吃的板面了。。虽然味道和我家乡的相差很远，但是好过没有，它就在新巴士站附近，一家叫Yum Yum的茶餐厅。

我的朋友们层出不穷。。。

2008-05-24T08:33:00.000+08:00

我的朋友们简直是层出不穷。。

自从比尔发起的打羽球运动，发展到现在我们的羽球队友有时候会爆满到20几个人，而且一个礼拜还打足5天，了不起吧？

刚开始打我什么rules都不懂！连换位子，如何发球，开球，方式全部都不对！（因为之前都是打爽的嘛）被他们训练到我现在可以当Umpire了，（也只是说说分数而已啦，但是每次当umpier超爽的，好像很有权威的样子）

羽球在马来西亚还算是蛮热门的运动。在我们这个小镇上，也有很多人打羽球。毕竟这里娱乐不多，所以比较多人选择一些运动来当休闲活动。（羽球，网球，篮球之类的）

前几天，我们的主席比尔还提倡了令一个活动。就是玩Frisby.

说Frisby, 你可能还不知道是什么运动。其实Frisby就是每次主人抛给狗去接的那片“飞碟”。不说我真的不知道，原来在外国， Frisby是以team的方式来玩的。而且就像别的运动一样，有rules和模式。

想要了解更多有关这项飞盘运动的详情-【按这里】

昨天下午下了场雨，我还害怕傍晚的活动会受到干扰。但是没有办法，已经通知全部人了，所以就如期进行。

草地上湿溻溻的，可是我们没有理会。。。照玩！

我们带了风筝。。。这个大型的风筝还是和Frankie借的。

他说他很喜欢这张照片。。令他看起来有帅到。。

刚开始是我们先到。。Zini偷了弟弟的飞盘出来。。我们就开始互相抛丢来练习。

我们还“顺便”野餐。。看来我们的活动每次都离不开吃。。想瘦都难。（我还做了葱油饼呢）

A Non (福州话：做小的，或者是小弟的意思）每天都是喜欢穿Jeans裤来运动。打羽球也是。

后来人陆陆续续的到了，游戏就开始了。分成两队，大家抢来抢去玩得不亦乐乎。。看来每个人人老心不老啊。

如意姐和比尔的孩子相处得和乐融融，小Isaac开始会看镜头了，不会抗拒，每次我拿镜头对准他他都会看过来，粉给面子呢！呵呵呵。

后来还巧遇Jean, (论坛上的一位版主）在放他的Goldkite, 用遥控器的，超有型。而且听说还价值不菲，要接近RM1000多块钱才可以买到。 -_- ORZ, 我还是飞普通的好了。

侥幸被我用闪光灯拍到。。。飞得好快！

我们由5点多玩到接近8点多才去吃晚饭。。。厉害吧？

Flickr-我的照片存档空间

2008-05-20T11:26:00.000+08:00

刚刚帮我的Flickr续了一年的费用，共是USD 24.95 << 好贵啊！转换回来马币差不多要RM 100.00 酱，我也是几经考虑才续的。我选择Flickr是因为它简单好用，而且上传了照片并没有degrade我照片的quality. 你们看我的【Flickr】上虽然不是很多照片，但是其实我很多照片都隐形为private了。（拿来转载，或存档之用）而且我每次上传的照片尺寸都蛮大的，差不多会到2-3MB左右，想想看，其实还蛮值得的啦。其他免费的空间，像是photobucket之类的，每次我上传大尺寸的照片都会卡在那边，上传不了。而且照片的品质很明显的会degrade, 很不好用。

还有啊，那个死人friendster更死！每次放了照片整个不能看的。。。破得不得了。真的是好心他们去upgrade下那个system咯。。至少要和facebook看齐啊。。真是的

唉。。。

2008-05-13T08:26:00.001+08:00

唉～～～我好想回去海边啊。。。好想念Bako啊。。。

母亲节快乐

2008-05-11T19:40:00.000+08:00

祝各位母亲节快乐！

我的志愿

2008-05-05T10:58:00.000+08:00

人的志愿，总会随着时间不停的改变。

小学时期，约莫三年级左右，我想要当律师。

那时候单纯的觉得，哇，说说话就能够赚钱，多么好啊！

没有多久，我的志愿就变了，变了要当电台DJ.

那阵子我受到老师的青睐，派我去唱歌还有演讲，都有拿到名次。我还记得当时我的班级主任是巫老师，他除了是老师，还是兼职的DJ. 中文说得字正腔圆，还有一把很动听的声音，那时候我很崇拜他，想到我长大了要像他一样，当DJ.

到中学后，开始发现自己不是读书的料子，反倒对设计超有兴趣。所以中学毕业后跑去念广告设计，心想我这种有天分的人一定可以当个很好的设计师。谁知道不到一年，我开始觉得原来当设计师是那么的累！那么的不自由！需要那么“商业化”。所以，我立刻drop out了。

那个时候，我的心已经不再妄想能完成我所谓的志愿了。只要能够自己生活，不依靠别人，已经很困难了。哪里还记得什么志愿什么的。人越长越大，提起志愿自己都会觉得羞耻。是志愿，还是妄想？就这样慢慢的，　我们都失去了立下志愿的这一项权利，　连我们自己也不知道。

为什么以前我立下志愿的时候不会说， “我只想要做能令自己开心的事情”呢？如果是的话，我觉得我办到了yeh !

志愿到底是什么？只是一份职业？还是something beyond that? 这只有我们自己能够衡量。只要开心，就算，志愿达成了吧？（安慰自己ORZ)

他们的感情世界

2008-04-28T09:24:00.000+08:00

因为我的感情世界没啥好谈的，所以我就说说“他们”的感情世界。

我觉得做朋友的，总是希望看到自己的朋友开花结果，得到幸福。所以有时候我们难免会牵起红线，当起月老来了，积极的为朋友们配对。甚至也不管他们愿不愿意，反正老娘我爽就好了，哈哈哈。

我身边常发生的情况不外乎：她，她和她她她喜欢他，他喜欢的是另外一个人，或者是，他，他和他喜欢她，可是她喜欢的确是另外一个他。唉，你看你看，混乱吧？

当以上的情况发生的时候，旁人（我们）难免会着急，忙得晕头转向的收集“资料”。他说虾米。。她说虾米。。然后我们觉得虾米。。。忙得不亦乐乎，也不知道为了什么？

我觉得我们在旁只会越帮越忙，我相信，如果一个男生喜欢一个女生，他会自己告白的。相同的，如果一个女生喜欢一个男生，她就得自己为自己争取幸福。古人说的女追男隔层纱，是真的。同样的，如果女生都可以放下面子向你告白了，那为什么你还要回避呢？简直是侮辱了男人

怎么我说来说去到后来，还是要投诉男人的懦弱呢？我不是故意的。只是，虽然我不提倡"kepo"帮人家当红娘的风气，但是我还是忍不住要说上两句话。人生短短数十载，想到要做就要去做了，要不然，转眼间，在眼前的幸福就溜走了。男生如果被拒绝，也要大方的walk away.纠缠不清，何苦呢？

唉，虽然我才23，结婚也是前两年的事情，但是为什么偶觉得现在年轻人的感情世界那么的复杂了？还是我未老先衰？？理不清。。。

Life is too short to be afraid, don't hold back...just go for it !

冤家宜解，不宜结。

2008-04-24T08:50:00.000+08:00

朋友之间产生了误会，是否应该拿出来说？如果说出来的话，彼此都能够包容吗？在面前往往说不介意，没什么，可是转头就和另外一个人说这个，那个，为什么他那样说我， bla bla bla. 这样的态度，是朋友之间应该有的吗？这样算朋友吗？

我自己觉得，如果真正把一个人当朋友，我们是不会介意他们把我的缺点说出来。或许，心里会有些许不悦，但是如果把对方当成朋友的话，就不会放在心上了。 We talk about it, and then we move on. 好朋友不都应该是那样的吗？

我觉得人越大，越难交到好朋友。真正明了自己的有几个？我多么的希望，朋友之间可以“畅谈”。没有所谓的避忌应该说什么，不说什么。说错话的话，就不要放在心上，不要到处去渲染或抹黑人家。如果你真的介意人家那样说你，那你就要当场和那个人说，不要放在心里面，然后不要去“宣传”。

朋友，我们相识已经是个缘分了。希望彼此都可以接纳彼此的优，缺点。让我们敞开心怀包容对方吧。

期待Bako之旅

2008-02-29T07:31:00.000+08:00

Listening : 张悬-喜欢

3月20号我和一群论坛上的好友们会到Bako旅游，很期待！虽然被有些人临时放飞机，但是至少还剩下16人，这次的roadtrip会包含几个地方。要谢谢领队，比尔。他跑遍全沙巴沙捞越了，这边可是他的地盘哦！想到就兴奋了。

我很喜欢roadtrip. 很多人都比较喜欢搭飞机，但是我总觉得搭飞机会错过许多一路上的风景。我喜欢在车上，从窗外看出去景色不断变动的感觉。（当然我没有“晕车”啦，有晕车的人可能就不能够那么享受了）

这次我们会分成大概4辆车分别出发，从Sibu一路上到Kuching, 路途中会停留的地方包括：

除了Bako公园，我们还会到其他地方，列表如下。

20/3/2008-诗巫出发，实曼奎公园，西连瀑布，古晋，Bako国家公园。
21/3/2008-Bako国家公园
22/3/2008-古晋市区，石罗门山洞，无底湖。
23/3/2008-可爱家园。

你知道我多么糊涂吗？？最后那条“可爱家园” 我还以为是什么公园来着。。。原来比尔的意思是说自己的家。。0o_00 是我糊涂还是他画蛇添足，多此一举。。。写回家就好了嘛。。真是的。

那个石罗们山洞，还有无底湖，我可是非常期待哦！我听比尔说那个山洞好像要爬进去的。。我正在烦恼我要怎么把我的相机背包带进去，虽然不大，但是也弄到我头大了。

我回来后，会把我们的旅程编辑好（当然附图！）。希望到时候能吸引多多西马的朋友来这边玩哦！我毕竟也算半个沙捞越人了。

慢慢补上外拍感想 - 当时间停止转动的时候

2008-02-27T09:51:00.000+08:00

那天遇到Slog, (当时间停止转动的时候外拍的男模特儿），问我，为什么我没有在部落格上填写那次的外拍感想，是不是他们有什么做得不好？其实不是的。。我只是遗忘了。。其实我在论坛上已经大略诉说过一编了，我并不知道原来模特儿会对我的想法那么好奇。所以，我现在下定决心，要把接下来每次外拍的感想记录下来。

说回那次外拍。

那天我老早就起床了，虽然外拍前我都会亲自到现场视察一番，但是外拍当天我会习惯性的起得比较早，检查好所有要带的东西。早上的session, 我通常会叫我模特儿7.30am 到，然后我自己大概7点多就会到了。当然你不能够expect模特儿准时（我并不是说他们不准时，但是把时间计划早一点是为了以防万一。）而且那天的化妆师会在现场化妆，所以我预算最迟大概8.30am就要开拍了。

地点是一个菜市场停车场的顶楼，我很喜欢那个停车场，因为很空旷，而且静悄悄的，没有人把车停那边。那天的天气很阴凉, 所以整个外拍过程都很舒服。

对模特儿的想法：

Surprisingly overall Slog的肢体动作比棋流畅很多，之前和他聊的时候他还告诉我他是很害羞的人，但是我想他应该是在家练习了怎样摆pose吧。其实外拍之前我都会找很多照片给他们看看，好让他们有些摆pose的概念，不会一头雾水。

至于对于棋的评价，因为我自己失误了，开拍前没有检查棋的鞋子。到那天早上才知道鞋子真的太矮了。棋是个身材非常娇小的女生，而且她上半身比较宽，鞋子高度可是会影响整个视觉效果。加上棋反而变成了比较害羞的那个，拍摄时候不断的频频笑场，很多照片无论是肢体动作方面，或者是pose方面都比slog来得僵硬了点。

整体的结论，我喜欢slog整体动作方面，而棋我喜欢她的Close Up. 这次的拍摄其实我和化妆师在策划方面讨论了很久，我想尝试比较大胆的妆容，化出来的效果其实我自己很喜欢。拍出来棋的脸变很立体，很sharp. 而slog方面，我建议了在他脸上化army grease. 觉得他很适合比较粗旷的感觉。很多照片我自己很喜欢，希望在来临的日子里，我还能够继续和他们合作，拍不同的系列。

Behind the scenes :

以下是我个人很喜欢的照片。
Model: Slog and Qi
Makeup : Lisa Chiu
Full set : http://www.simmy-tan.com/whentimestandstill

和大家拜个早年

2008-01-21T13:19:00.000+08:00

很普通的一张照片，还好当晚有把三脚架带在身上，不然没有办法玩长时间曝光了。祝大家农历新年万事如意，龙马精神，步步高升。

每次把我的相机套在三脚架上都有个恐惧感。。就是怕它会掉下来。

那天我的外接闪光灯从我的相机上摔下来。。后来试了几次，还好没事。不知道会不会有后遗症。。如果真的坏了的话我会吐血。我的三脚架是便宜货，怕它不能够支撑我相机的重量，搞不好真的需要买个manfrotto才行。不知道你们知不知道还有没有其他比较便宜的牌子的（但是也要好的啦，正所谓便宜，靓，正嘛）

迷上了摄影就代表以后永无止境的花钱。有什么多余的钱不会想到花在别的地方，只会花在配件上，衣服化妆品买少了，连旅行业不舍得，哈哈哈。

2008年，你有什么新愿望呢？我只是希望今年会比往年好.身体健康，快快乐乐就足够了。:)

中华美食茶楼

2008-01-08T07:50:00.000+08:00

最近帮他们拍了一辑照片。

他们晚上可是做小菜的，早上则是买点心。

那天老板为我们介绍的是小菜。味道大致上都还不错，口味比较重，比较适合西马人的口味（我觉得啦）。毕竟福州人比较喜欢淡口味的食物，不知道他们接受得了没有。

Full set available here : http://www.simmy-tan.com/restaurant01

以下我套用Ling哥的讲评：

第一張相片是營養蝦仁蔬菜湯。如果要講有史以來我吃過最驚訝的美食的話，這道湯肯定能夠上榜。各位如果認為這又是另一道“碎肉版的魚翅湯”或者“蝦仁蔬菜版的魚翅湯”的話，那就大錯特錯咯！這道美食的味道其實味道是很輕淡，很香的。聽老板說，廚師是把8種蔬菜絞碎后，才加入蝦仁並熬煮成湯。

有些朋友吃后感覺很怪，但我個人就很喜歡這碗湯。很特別，很特別……真的很難忘的味道。我到現在還在回味那時喝這碗湯的感覺，特別是第一口喝下去的時候。那份驚喜感覺絕對不亞於朋友給我的“意外聖誕禮物”……呵呵呵……老板也說，這碗湯最適合給不喜歡吃菜的小孩子喝。因為他們吃不到很多蔬菜在里頭。里面會吃到的顆粒應該就只有蝦仁和黃瓜而已。很贊，很贊！

第二張相片是四川一品麻辣豆腐。喜歡辛辣的朋友，這道菜應該是適合你的了。我個人是不太會吃辣的，但覺得整碗豆腐的味道都很好，不會辣到很嗆的地步。它的辣味也有別於本地的辣味。感覺不會一下子給我很辣的感覺。那種辣味好象是酒精一樣，要經過一段時間的“沉澱”和“發酵”之後，才會慢慢地把味道發出來那樣。所以不會吃辣的人，不要一下子吃很多哦，怕等一下辣味“全發出來”之後，可能會有點受不了。呵呵呵呵……

而且吃這道菜色還有竅門哦：會吃辣的就盡量吃旁邊的部份，配上醬汁；不會吃辣的專注於中間部份就好了。如果只單吃中間部份的話，其實一點都不辣。而且豆腐中間才是寶哦，因為這個部份的豆腐是最順滑，最順口的。

而且老板還說，他們專挑做豆腐做得最好、最順口的人，去制作那條豆腐。所以，大家在那里吃到的豆腐，口感都會是很贊的哦！

接下來的兩碗煲仔飯……嗯，就是煲仔飯的味道咯！哈哈哈哈……因為之前去吃的時候已經吃的很飽了，煲仔飯才“出現”，所以並沒有特別去品嚐這兩道美食。但經由朋友提醒后才發現，那個煲仔飯居然沒有燒焦的飯粒……嗯，似乎就少了一點味道哦！但大家如果真的很喜歡煲仔飯的話，再忍耐一點，新廚師要到了。到時的煲仔飯味道應該會和現在的有一定的差別。而且所用的香腸也會是中國直接進口的哦！

分成重輕口味的西施魚扒。嗯，各有所好。我都很喜歡。但如果真的要挑出比較喜歡的話，我會選擇西施魚扒（輕口味的，就是洒上奶黃色醬汁的那張相片）。沒辦法，我自問是喜歡牛奶味的人，而那個醬汁是由牛奶調制成的，配上新鮮的炸魚扒，以及旁邊的黃梨塊……哦，實在是難以抗拒！！又是一道非常贊非常贊的美食。重口味的嘛，也很好吃，但帶來的感覺就沒有那么強烈。醬汁味道有點象千島沙律（thousand island salad）的味道，但不是用那種醬制成的。如果自問荷包沒有負擔的話，可以點兩樣魚扒來吃，然后再比較那一道比較好吃吧！

好，繼續。廣式沙茶排骨。嗯……這一道菜是會比較令人失望的。不是它不好吃，而是它的味道沒有什么令人留下深刻印象的地方。感覺很象是普通排骨，再加上類似泥沙狀的沙茶而已。個人認為，在吃的時候看到沙茶那樣洒下去的感覺，還蠻特別的……呵呵呵……（自樂中）……

最后一張，佛山剝茄子。我還蠻喜歡吃茄子的，但切成這么大條的茄子還是第一次看到。口感不錯，不會太硬，但也不會太軟，剛剛好。

整道菜有點辛辣，但對不太會吃辣的我是沒問題。上面的碎肉和“阿里布雜”的東西（sorry，真的不知道是什么東東來的）組成的“調味料”，無論在視覺上或味覺上都非常不錯。記得要跟茄子一起配，那種味道真的很棒哦！有點咸咸辣辣的……

還有，相片中的視覺效果絕對沒有實物來得震憾……呵呵呵，各位不妨就點一下看看我說的對不對吧！

其實中華美食茶樓的菜餚整体給我的印象很好，因為味道都有它們獨特的地方（除了沙茶排骨之外），有些還真的是非常好吃的那種。最重要的是，每道菜的價格都不貴。價格很合理，有些還比想象中還低。真的！如果我沒記錯的話，西米拍的美食的單價最高都沒超過15令吉還是16令吉。好多還是在10令吉以下的哩！真是有點喜出望外！

忙。。好忙。

2008-01-04T09:08:00.000+08:00

大家好！新年快乐啊！祝福来迟了。。因为最近实在太太太忙了。。下个礼拜会回去KL了，所以想把手头上的工作处理好！还有好多照片还有有时间处理还人家啊。。。天啊。拖了他们好久。。。就要给人杀了。

你们不要杀我啊。。我赶通宵也会在这两个礼拜内搞定的。

我昨天去拍婚礼了。。。累垮了！一早上3.30am就起床了，新娘子在4.30化妆，去那间Tiffany的时候觉得他们的装修好漂亮！在这种小地方来说算很好了，而且看他们陈列的照片也拍得很好，很有艺术性质。所以我有点惊讶为什么我听回来的feedbacks都是negative的。很多朋友都说，他们摄影师还有sales person的态度都很不好，付了钱前后判若两人。还有和他们拍的照片（重点）和陈列还有sample wedding books差好多。。。其实我看了过后，有点受不了的是他们相本的设计。好花俏哦！其实我觉得如果照片拍得好，设计简单点就行了，不用画蛇添足加那么多东西。我觉得这里的相本设计都很差。。和Kuching的差好远！我不想comment 内景。。但是外景就真的拍得不错。（本人不是很喜欢那些花花绿绿，红色蓝色的布景。。。。比较喜欢简单的黑白配）如果设计不那么地繁复，是少看起来比较classy一点。

这里的婚纱摄影服务还有好大的进步空间，这里其实对婚纱摄影的需求量蛮大的。毕竟很多人负担不起出去大城市拍摄，希望他们会越做越好。

说回结婚过程摄影，其实我蛮享受的。。。虽然真的很累。但是每次回家后放大图片来看的时候好有满足感。喜欢那种拍摄出来可以陈诉当时新人们心情的照片，看了后会觉得很温暖，很窝心。

你结婚了吗？你满意你的摄影师为你拍摄的照片吗？有经验的朋友们不妨和我分享。

Wendy の Home Sweet Home

2007-12-27T13:05:00.000+08:00

好喜欢这辑照片

看Presentation Set : [ Click Here ]

这个女生，超级上镜头，很好拍。什么角度都可以。我觉得她的笑容是卖点，所以我比较专注在脸部特写，

认得她么？之前的post有提到的，就是wendy啦，美丽的版主。那天晚上默默地观察她好久， (对，我就是不怀好意，怎样？哇哈哈哈哈）

赶好了这set, 还有好多set要赶啊。

圣诞节-爱的季节

2007-12-22T07:48:00.000+08:00

圣诞节是个浪漫的季节。

虽然我们不是处在会下雪的地方，但是我们都是会爱的人，在哪里过圣诞，都是一样的。

昨天参加了诗巫一网通的圣诞聚会，感想良多。

我加入他们这个大家庭有大概几个月的时间了，从KL搬过来的我，在这里并没有什么朋友。生活圈子围绕的都是Uncle Andrew的朋友。之从加入了诗巫一网通，认识了一群好朋友，生活变得精彩多了。多亏有他们，我在这里的日子并不会太过于难熬。也有人和我说过，住在这种小地方，如果没有朋友，日子是很难过的。我绝对赞同。

其实中间也发生了很多风风雨雨，有很多小误会，但是在这个这么温馨的季节里，我就不想说不好的了。让我们往好的方向看吧。

昨天的晚会都算办得非常成功，有得吃，还有礼物拿。还有红酒喝呢，哈哈哈。节目也安排的很妥当，至少没有冷场出现，　现场大概有４０个人左右吧，　那是非常难得的。

其实对很多会员的印象都蛮深刻的，　很多网友之前已经出来见过面的了，所以昨晚并不会觉得陌生。

其实我昨晚累得半死，　冒着病也去参加，　感动吧？　呵呵呵。

Farley Pinnacle 为聚会场地

MC兼DJ, 也是会员之一，匿名为专属天使

我最喜欢的一盘，全都是炸的食物

美丽的版主Wendy，抱着Alfred站长的女儿，把人家吓哭了啦Wendy !

Alfred站长的女儿，是不是很口爱？

小兰和蒙蒙，小兰也是外拍主要的化妆师哦。

认得她吗？呵呵呵，我许多照片中的女主角。

Jeanie, 我做的项链哦！

还安排了圣诞老公公来派礼物，你要大大声笑出来 “HOHOHO" 他才会给你礼物

Wendy, 玩游戏的时间到了。

Wendy, 阿雪和Kenny, 在每个人的背后贴号码。

每次都一定要玩游戏的版主Peter. 如愿以偿啦！

傻婆Joan, 出局了还那么的开心。

阿雪说：要大大声的说出来。

Jeanie和宇雯献唱。。。（诡计在后头）月亮代表我的心。

唱到一半，突然换人唱了？ Stanley (匿名飘飘的Stan)突然飘出来向他的女朋友（美美的箐）献唱，还准备了99多玫瑰花。

飘小子出乎意料的在现场向美美的箐求婚！我们大家也都蛮Surprise的。

原来Stanley一早就已经预备好要surprise女朋友了，看到他们甜蜜的模样，我还真的是羡慕啊。（没有暗示什么，哈哈哈）

谢谢你让我们分享你们的喜悦，令这次的晚会生色不少。愿你们在来临的日子里，永远甜甜蜜蜜，恩恩爱爱。

你看你看，这个飘小子，笑得见牙不见眼，知道你们幸福了啦！ grrrr

后来的跳舞环节，他们领队先跳。

刚刚添丁的比尔夫妇，脸上也是洋溢着幸福美满的笑容，不输飘夫妇滴。~

题外话， Stanley可是真的会飘移的哦，他对车的热诚很高，还自创了一个飘逸模拟的游戏，拿到很多奖项的，你们大家可以来这里看看。 [click here]

总的来说，度过了一个简单快乐的夜晚。要谢谢各位大大们的用心，筹备这个聚会相信他们也花了不少时间和精神。

病了

2007-12-21T08:03:00.000+08:00

真的病了。

昨天拍摄花费时间大概3个钟头++，吃了早餐回到家大概11点多了，（早上6.10am)已经起床了。回来过后，想睡觉但是睡不着。后来吵Uncle Andrew开榴莲吃，吃了过后就开始觉得身体不妥当了。。。那时候他还用榴莲壳装水喝，我看到后就笑他说： You know that is only folklore. 又不是真的喝了不会发热气。

后来我发高烧了，他却完全没事。平时都是他身体弱过我的。我很久很久才会病一次。。。还要选在今天病。都不知道支持得到去晚上的一网通圣诞聚会没有。

我讨厌生病，我不喜欢身体弱的感觉，令我觉得很无奈。

我以后再也不吃榴莲了。

讨厌你，榴莲

题外话，这个照片是我在google image找到的，你不觉得右边那块。。。er..长得很诡异吗？？真的吃得下去吗？？

掩饰

2007-12-19T10:44:00.000+08:00

哇我好喜欢AirBrush啊。

如果我把原本的照片放上来。。我看会吓死你。（原本的照片是刚起床，素颜的，粉底也不上）

虽然很假，但是我很有成就感。。我第一次尝试用Photoshop的Eye Lashes Brushes. 单单加那个睫毛哦。。。就花了我大概半个小时调整了。

Airbrush好神奇哦，我技巧还没有到家，不然可能看起来比较“真”

其实无论多真，都还只是假象。 :P.

有人想要尝试这个Eye Lashes brush吗？可以留言让我传给你哦！

2007-12-18T09:27:00.000+08:00

Model : Joan
Project ：无状态.系列

很多人问我为什么不拍男生？

其实不是我不要拍，而是没有男生找我，也遇不到想要拍的对象。（对男生我很挑的，对不起，女生给我的感觉比较好。）

但是很快有惊喜咯。。。我自己也很期待。：P

Joan 无状态的这个系列，其实我自己非常满意。

灵感来自于张悬的一首歌，就是叫无状态。非常喜欢歌词的意境，旋律和歌词配得很好。有种淡淡忧郁的味道，这是一首会令人沉思的一首歌。

喜欢永恒的短暂　
化主动为被动的昏暗
所有公允的景观之中，我都不存在
我喜欢邂逅的对白。抹有某部电影的光采
你要我给的，应该也如此的　是这答案。

不要把美好的故事留下来
不去制约，被制约；没有习惯
我喜欢独白胜过众人的彩排

不要让眼泪成为生活的客串
不去制约；被制约，等待遗憾
我酷嗜孤独的爱

我酷嗜倔强的爱。

我觉得张悬是一个非常有深度的女生，好想拍她哦。～

我的Uncle Andrew又出门了。幸好认识了几位好朋友。。。我才不会独守空楼。哈哈哈。这个礼拜四是公共假期，我也有外拍，节目还算丰富吧。

要出去邮寄货物了。。。唉。

Happy Tuesday.

圣诞节，怎么过？

2007-12-16T16:51:00.000+08:00

不知道。

来了这个山芭过后，比较享受“在家”的感觉了。时常躲在家里，哪里都不想去。

其实，和他一起的话，去哪里都不要紧。 ^_^. （其实我在他面前可不是这样说的，我是说。。。"you better plan something...if not...你就知死。。。哇哈哈哈“）

这里外面还是水灾呀，今天早上吃了早餐我们顺便去朋友的家，他们家门口的水涨到我膝盖头上了。但是因为我们驾unser过去，所以没有问题，直接就爬上他家的garage了。

他们还很搞笑，用四个轮胎，上面加一块板，用朔胶绳绑在一起做了一艘船。另外用木板加棍就当筏子坐上去在水上划了起来。我应该拍那艘"船"的照片，你们肯定会觉得非常有创意。

前几天意外的在报纸上看到一张我拍的照片，吓了一跳。原来是之前我在喜宴上拍了以为亲戚孩子的照片，她拿去参赛了，默默的排在第六名，好感动啊！

很简单的一张照片，不像别的父母的都是在studio拍的，觉得有点格格不入的感觉。

就是这张：

我放在论坛上和别人分享的时候，还有人跟我说她投的是我这张，（她当时并不知道是我拍的），还连投了六票，好感动啊！

其实这个宝贝的父母之前才叫我和他们拍了一家三口的专辑，有很多比较美的，如果拿那些参赛可能会比较恰当吧？

很多张我自己都很喜欢，放几张上来和你们分享：

听到被拍者说很喜欢这批照片，我自己也是很高兴滴。～呵呵呵。但是拍小孩子。。。真的不简单。累滴。。～

但是拍完之后觉得，又上了一堂课了，获益良多。

诗巫水灾 - Flood in Sibu

2007-12-13T07:54:00.000+08:00

天啊。。。。。。。终于被我亲身体验水灾了。

我还记得当初我跟Andrew过来时，他亲戚说几十年前她从星加坡嫁过来时，那时候她刚到机场，我的叔公用speedboat来载他回家。她当时还吓到说，是不是整个诗巫都是在水上的？哈哈。那时候是诗巫的大水灾，恰巧就是在他们结婚那个时候发生。我想，那个经验一定是永生难忘啊。

我们家目前还没有遭殃，但是朋友家就惨了。他家是处于Jalan Tong Sang 一带，那里可是灾区啊。他家楼下完全浸水了。只能够在楼上了。

我们家在德大一带，我们前面有个大水沟，很深的，今早起身已经满了。车房，马路，目前都还没有进水。如果连下几场雨的话，我想整个诗巫就会严重水灾了。

昨天我叫Uncle Andrew用摩多车载我这个山芭婆出去看“水景”。顺便带相机出去拍照。我有点吓到，因为真的蛮深的。

There's Always Hope

除了普通的水景，我还看到好美丽的彩虹呢！刚快拍了一张silhouette shot.

Jalan Tong Sang 一带简直是不能够用车行驶了。。

好啦，终于给我这个山芭婆看到水灾了。。。。不知道应该高兴还是伤心。（别打我哦）

昨天我怕在KL的家人担心，所以摇了个电话给我姨妈。可是很好笑的是她可是一点也不担心哦！只是记得叫我什么都不用买。。。只是带几盆orchid回去就好了。（我家婆种花一流！）她说反正还没有淹到我家就可以了。。。哈哈哈。我这个阿姨哦。。。被她气死。

我很期待回家，多一个月就可以回去见到他们了。很开心！还有美筠，那个死八婆现在出名了，要见她一面可是比登天还难啊。希望回去能见见他们。好怀念以前一起的日子。唉。很想家啊。。。。。

诗巫点心楼-中华美食楼食评

2007-12-09T10:18:00.000+08:00

这个周末比较寂寞，老公一早就要做工了，又是印尼仔的事情。昨天从印尼过来7个人，今天他要处理送他们过去Kapit的事情。

闷哦。有他在家虽然不是黏在一起，但是有点声音也好。

今天在上过去那间中华茶楼吃点心了。。。。。。。真的不好吃。虾饺的确不错，但是其他的都是麻麻地。我觉得绝对不值得那个价钱。老板。。。。。。。hor......竟敢顶撞顾客。我其实只是给个建议而已，就算你不赞同， customer is always right. 难道不是吗？

因为在一网通上有人极力推荐他，可能是帮老板请他们吃了，所以要帮忙宣传吧。哈哈哈。所以我一回来立刻写了个很长编的critics在那个专题上，详情如下。

好，终于勇敢地去尝试了。

我有很多话要说。

第一点，如果你是赶时间的话，绝对不要去。我坐在那里等点心等了很久，轮也轮不到我。我们吃东西的适度算是块吧，但是也要花将近一个小时时间才能离开。

第二点：位子很小，人很多，所以如果你到的时候没有位子，可能要等上一段时间。

第三点：位子已经那么小了，还要以推车形式来收碗具？？？？？？我看到都已经傻眼了。我以前在酒店的餐馆做工，整个点心楼像ballroom那么大，我们收碗碟也不会推车来收。我们是用托盘的方式来收碟，又快，又省时间。也不会顶着点心餐车。希望他们能够改进。

第四点：就好象kotoko所说的，很失望，并没有提供小盘子供我们过掉第一回的茶。我最爱喝的普洱也没有到，彻了壶菊花茶，一点味道也没有。更别说香了。

食物方面：

糯米鸡进步了，已经不是白色了，而是米色。但是里面的陷料很奇怪，绝对不是鸡肉，而是猪肉。还有沙葛？？糯米很硬，蒸不够久就出炉了。米饭有点不熟的感觉。

猪肠粉- 一句话，不好吃。我并不是嘴挑。连我老公也说不好吃。简直没有味道。皮也太厚了。平时吃点心时我最爱的猪肠粉，简直被他们破坏了在我心目中的形象。

虾饺 - 好吃。皮厚度刚刚好。陷料很多，虾很大，很新鲜。这个我给 8/10.

葡式蛋挞- 我觉得没有什么特别，味道略显甜了一点。

萝卜糕 - 好吃。很特别的味道。和平时的不一样。

价钱

比我在西马的价钱贵了一点。不过吃点心，都是预算了是贵的，还算可以。但是食物味道值不值得这个价钱，我觉得，还没有到那个水准。

服务态度 - 服务生态度很好，但是真的很慢。客人流动率不是很高，所以你们才会觉得很多人。这是我的看法啦。

结论 - 总的来说，我觉得在sibu能够吃到点心是很好的一件事。但是食物水准真的还有很大的进步空间。我希望有人能够经营点心行业，有点比较可能他们会比较积极改善。我会去第二次，但是绝对不是因为他们好吃。而是因为在这里没有别的选择。

至于那个老板。

我直接当地和他反映了有关于那个茶的事情，他不但不认同，还要顶撞我说因为这是台湾茶所以不用过茶。我心想，难道台湾人喜欢喝灰尘？？？？？喜欢喝还没有有味道的茶？不是吧。。。。。。。。我是跟他说，叫他预备一个盘子，好让我们能够把第一轮茶倒掉。他就说东说西的，说中国人，台湾人没有这个文化。这个，可能burgerling 和 petercs 可以帮他解释一下，为什么他会那么说呢？你们两个是他的宣传大使。。。希望你们能够和他反映一下。对客人的态度，不要太坚决，我给你意见，只是希望你能进步而已。 customer is always right. 他就算有他的理由。也不需要以那种态度来反驳我。

Please refer to the discussion thread here : http://www.sibu.org/kn/read.php?tid=8528&page=e#a

无论怎样，在诗巫可以吃到点心是真的不错，但是我希望他们不要因为以为只有他们一间，没有竞争所以不需要改进。我会回去，但是绝对不是因为他食物好吃，而是因为这里没有别的地方吃点心。