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Inspiration : Francesca Woodman

Monday, June 30, 2008, 7:54 AM 5 comments

18sx, 未成年的人不要看哦。。。

看了Francesca Woodman的照片，让我感觉好震撼。。。一个那么年轻的女生，从作品中表达出来的思绪，怎么会那么沉重呢。

再加上她在踏入20岁时选择跳楼来离开这个世界，更令她短暂的生命，笼罩着一股浓浓的神秘感。

看完了她的作品，有种言语说不出来的沉重，也不知道如何解释那种心情。

谁是Francesca Woodman?

Thank you

7:25 AM 5 comments

我朋友们第一天就过来看我了，（当然不是看我啦。。只是顺便而已，哈哈哈）。真要谢谢他们。

迟些再把其他照片post上来，现在要赶工了。

文化节好多东西吃，我都还没有时间一一去看呢：（呜呜呜，谁有过来的话买些请我吃吧。哈哈哈哈

Things change

Saturday, June 28, 2008, 11:47 AM 3 comments

Yes things do changes.

Last night after we finish packing up and left the booth, we went and join our friends for supper. Some chit chats and conversations led Ah Lian asked us how do we know each, how long we've been married, etc. And surprise surprise, i don't even remember how long we've been married ! Infact, both of us came up with different answers. Andrew said 1 year, i said 2 years, honestly i wasn't really sure. I've forgotten completely about it.

I used to care about such details : like when did we start dating officially, the date we engaged, the date we registered...I cared so much that i wanted him to care, too. But now, i couldn't careless. Is that a bad sign?

On our way home, i told him, maybe i should make a blog post about all the details, so that we can look back from time to time, to remind ourselves all the hardships we've been through to be together. (yes, painful memories) But i don't even know where to start, because i forget, because i couldn't care to remember. And memory just slips away, how cruel.

Maybe it's my social life that's getting me, i love my friends so much, sometimes i even prefer to spend time with them than with my husband. LOL. Yes that's true.

I'm on local newspaper today

Friday, June 27, 2008, 10:34 AM 6 comments

Yes !! I am so surprised to see the artical being posted inside a [local forum] that i frequent, i didn't even know myself, i thought it was going to be publish next week. Thanks to my friend Burgerling for the feature, and i hope i am good enough to be featured. (that's for the viewers to decide)

Side note, [My45.net] sponsored me a small space to display my photographs at their booth at the Borneo Cultural Festival, it starts today, if you are from Sibu, please stop by and visit. I will be there starting from 6-10pm throughout the festival. The prints look really good !!! (i laid them on the floor the other day and looked at them for a long period of time..hahahah)

I gotta run for now, take care and have a nice weekends everybody.

Wedding

Monday, June 16, 2008, 1:59 PM 7 comments

Yea i've finally changed the banner on my blog..it's Lisa up there, now say Hi. :P I miss you gurl, hope we'll have another chance to work together in near future.

I've finally completed a wedding set today, but this client of mine prefers to remain anonymous, therefore, i am not posting their set on my website as portfolio. However, i have couple of highlights to share here on my blog, most without faces, ofcourse. ;)

These are some of my favorite images of the set:

Love love love this shot...so delicate..so beautiful

I just had to shoot this, gorgeous accessory.

Noise worked well for this particular shot.

This church has a very nice nostalgic feeling about it, and i love the glass panel as background, absolutely stunning. I didn't shoot much here because the church rules for photography is quite strict. :(

Yes, raining, more fun i guess?

Another favorite shot of mine...i love sihouette pics like this. The red umbrella added a very nice contrast to the whole image. I did selective black and white on this photo. The black background on both sides aren't photoshoped.

I love this moment when i can photograph freely with no disturbance at all...it was so quiet and serene.

I want to say thank you to Jean (who introduced this couple to me), also their friends whom took care of my bags for me. Kind people still exists these days. ;)

Stanley Carter's Wedding

Friday, June 13, 2008, 12:25 PM 8 comments

Today is the famous and 'handsem' friend of mine, Stanley's wedding...an incredible multimedia artist and drifter (for real !) goes by the name Stanley Carter because of a drift game he invented (too bad i've forgotten the link, i shall post it later on). Ofcourse, it's an hounour for me to witness their wedding too

This is his youtube, check out some of his drifting videos [here]

It's fun to shoot friend's wedding, as opposed to other wedding assignments i usually do. Simply because you can relate to the couple more.

Normally i work alone, therefore i drive myself. But today i have Lien fetched me from bride's house to groom's house, and it was extremely helpful because Stanley mentioned that i must take more photos of the car...i shot alot of frames leaning out of Lien's car window on the road, dangerous but fun fun fun !

Teaser : The classical zoom burst effect

PS : Anyone in Sibu saw us on the street this morning? :P

This is his wedding car for the special day, damn chun, i think it's called evo something (sorry i don't know much about cars, but erhmm, nice color?)

Still have banquet to cover at night, i am going to bed now (it's 12.35pm) to get some nap, perhaps regain some energy for later on.

“昏”纱

Wednesday, June 11, 2008, 6:56 PM 6 comments

Desmond and Ivy [Bridal]

Finally completed this set...

Many many more to come....(please dont rush me, 慢工出细活, :P)

Stressing out

1:00 PM 3 comments

I am stressing out now.

I have so much to do, but instead of completing the tasks, i am sitting here blogging.-_-

There are alot of things going on, and i am planning something which i can't quite tell you yet, (when the time is near i will), and i hope eventually everything turns out right.

And lately i've been contemplating whether it's possible for me to go back to school and study more. Perhaps i can still work freelance to earn the tuition fee? Who knows. Perhaps i can study art, photography or even language (which i've always wanted to do). Or maybe, i can pick up where i left off, go back and study GD instead (maybe i'll like it this time? LOL)

Maybe i'll start saving money now instead of spending all i have ALL THE FREAKING TIME.

My passion rarely goes away if i truly like something, sometimes i switch simply because i've made the wrong choice. In life, it's all about choices.

I'm still young, i am allowed to make choices. I should probably savor the priviledge.

So why am i wasting my time? What is holding me back?

I guess you know.

他们“应该”知道

Tuesday, June 10, 2008, 7:32 AM 5 comments

昨天我们和Frankie他们打羽球了，通常我们是打2,4,6的，但是因为他们那边有空档，所以我们就过去了。

很巧很巧的是昨天遇到【他】了，看他的部落格也有好长一段时间了，（虽然中间他MIA过）。本来还不打算打招呼，因为只有我见过他他没有见过我，我不好意思嘛。哈哈哈。加上整身汗臭味（我想只有我亲爱的羽球朋友们才能忍受吧）。后来因为Andrew太太太八卦了，压抑不住，所以走前去自我介绍，后来我们才打招呼。

他真人样子很baby face, 比实际年龄小许多。看起来算是蛮健谈的一个男生吧。有时候可能人家知道你是他们的blog reader, 所以没有什么好隐瞒的吧？

Anyway, it was very nice meeting you, Huai Bin. ;)

继续～

打玩两场羽球后， Paul和他的女朋友不知怎的吵了起来。 Paul应该是不爽他女朋友很多粒开的球都接不到吧？一直不断的在旁边碎碎念，说什么“我教你你就要听”的话。他女朋友应该是生气了吧，东西一拿就走了。当我们打好之后驾车离开一段路，半路看到他女朋友在走路回家。那时候天色蛮暗了，我就告诉Andrew叫他打电话给Paul告诉他一声，然后Andrew就回答我了： “不用吧，他们应该知道了。”

他就是那样子的一个人。

我静止了一会儿，然后问他：“我可以和你说一些人生道理吗？”

(imagine a 23 year old preaching a 33 year old)

他点头。

“你知道就因为你一句话，如果那女孩出了什么事情，你会愧疚一辈子的。有很多时候，我们只需要做很简单的一件事情，就能避免意外发生了，为什么不呢？

就算他们真的也是知道了，我们也只是打个电话，求个心安理得而已。现在治安那么坏，她一个女生要是在路上发生什么事情，我们如何对得起自己的良心？”

他点头，说是是是（不甘愿的说法），然后才播电话。

我知道他还是不认同我，这只是为了避免接下来更多的争执，所以他才会打电话。

我多么希望他明白我为什么会执着。不过看来要他了解我的想法，比登天还难。

有时候我们就是因为袖手旁观，所以引发了很多意外。其实大部分时间我们只是需要做很简单的一些事情，就能够避免了，可是我们整天以为：“人家知道了”。所以没有去做，没有去说。东窗事发后， who's to blame?

虚拟的爱情

Friday, June 6, 2008, 8:49 AM 4 comments

虚拟世界的爱情，信得通吗？

我不能了解，没有见过面的，顶多也算是fling吧？算是relationship吗？

网上谈恋爱已经不出奇了，现在还有人用电话来和另一头的人“谈恋爱”，完全没有见过面就称彼此为“宝贝， honey, sweetheart" 之类的了，真是无奇不有。

我身边有一位朋友，就有如此的经历。

你不要以为我这位朋友条件不好，所以才用电话来谈恋爱，他的条件远比现在很多男生都好多了。外貌不但出色，有稳定的工作（帮爸爸打工的），性格良好，无不良嗜好。年龄比我小些，大概20岁出头吧。但是没有现代年轻人的浮夸，有礼貌，有风度，一等一的好青年。

他和这位没有见过面的女生用电话来谈恋爱大概也有一段时间了吧！和我们一起的大部分时间，他都是不断的在sms的，很多时候他都是接了电话，或者是看了讯息，会突然变得很郁闷很伤心的样子。我们猜想他是和电话另一头的那个“她”吵架吧！我不明白的是，这段“电话恋情”，为何杀伤力那么大？面都还没有见过就把这份感情看得那么重？如果见面了发现她并不如你所想象的怎么办呢？分手吗？

我也曾经问过他，为什么没有把人家约出来。他说他也很努力的想要说服这位女生出来见面，大概是她还不想见他吧。为什么呢？你都把人家当男朋友了。。。还不能够见面要等什么时候哦？？如果她一辈子都不出来和你见面，怎么办呢？总不能透过电话结婚吧？

这样子虚拟的爱情，算是“真正”的爱情吗? I don't get it.

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Inspiration : Francesca Woodman Monday, June 30, 2008, 7:54 AM 5 comments 18sx, 未成年的人不要看哦。。。看了Francesca Woodman的照片，让我感觉好震撼。。。一个那么年轻的女生，从作品中表达出来的思绪，怎么会那么沉重呢。再加上她在踏入20岁时选择跳楼来离开这个世界，更令她短暂的生命，笼罩着一股浓浓的神秘感。看完了她的作品，有种言语说不出来的沉重，也不知道如何解释那种心情。谁是Francesca Woodman? Thank you 7:25 AM 5 comments 我朋友们第一天就过来看我了，（当然不是看我啦。。只是顺便而已，哈哈哈）。真要谢谢他们。迟些再把其他照片post上来，现在要赶工了。文化节好多东西吃，我都还没有时间一一去看呢：（呜呜呜，谁有过来的话买些请我吃吧。哈哈哈哈 Things change Saturday, June 28, 2008, 11:47 AM 3 comments Yes things do changes. Last night after we finish packing up and left the booth, we went and join our friends for supper. Some chit chats and conversations led Ah Lian asked us how do we know each, how long we've been married, etc. And surprise surprise, i don't even remember how long we've been married ! Infact, both of us came up with different answers. Andrew said 1 year, i said 2 years, honestly i wasn't really sure. I've forgotten completely about it. I used to care about such details : like when did we start dating officially, the date we engaged, the date we registered...I cared so much that i wanted him to care, too. But now, i couldn't careless. Is that a bad sign? On our way home, i told him, maybe i should make a blog post about all the details, so that we can look back from time to time, to remind ourselves all the hardships we've been through to be together. (yes, painful memories) But i don't even know where to start, because i forget, because i couldn't care to remember. And memory just slips away, how cruel. Maybe it's my social life that's getting me, i love my friends so much, sometimes i even prefer to spend time with them than with my husband. LOL. Yes that's true. I'm on local newspaper today Friday, June 27, 2008, 10:34 AM 6 comments Yes !! I am so surprised to see the artical being posted inside a [local forum] that i frequent, i didn't even know myself, i thought it was going to be publish next week. Thanks to my friend Burgerling for the feature, and i hope i am good enough to be featured. (that's for the viewers to decide) Side note, [My45.net] sponsored me a small space to display my photographs at their booth at the Borneo Cultural Festival, it starts today, if you are from Sibu, please stop by and visit. I will be there starting from 6-10pm throughout the festival. The prints look really good !!! (i laid them on the floor the other day and looked at them for a long period of time..hahahah) I gotta run for now, take care and have a nice weekends everybody. Wedding Monday, June 16, 2008, 1:59 PM 7 comments Yea i've finally changed the banner on my blog..it's Lisa up there, now say Hi. :P I miss you gurl, hope we'll have another chance to work together in near future. I've finally completed a wedding set today, but this client of mine prefers to remain anonymous, therefore, i am not posting their set on my website as portfolio. However, i have couple of highlights to share here on my blog, most without faces, ofcourse. ;) These are some of my favorite images of the set: Love love love this shot...so delicate..so beautiful I just had to shoot this, gorgeous accessory. Noise worked well for this particular shot. This church has a very nice nostalgic feeling about it, and i love the glass panel as background, absolutely stunning. I didn't shoot much here because the church rules for photography is quite strict. :( Yes, raining, more fun i guess? Another favorite shot of mine...i love sihouette pics like this. The red umbrella added a very nice contrast to the whole image. I did selective black and white on this photo. The black background on both sides aren't photoshoped. I love this moment when i can photograph freely with no disturbance at all...it was so quiet and serene. I want to say thank you to Jean (who introduced this couple to me), also their friends whom took care of my bags for me. Kind people still exists these days. ;) Stanley Carter's Wedding Friday, June 13, 2008, 12:25 PM 8 comments Today is the famous and 'handsem' friend of mine, Stanley's wedding...an incredible multimedia artist and drifter (for real !) goes by the name Stanley Carter because of a drift game he invented (too bad i've forgotten the link, i shall post it later on). Ofcourse, it's an hounour for me to witness their wedding too This is his youtube, check out some of his drifting videos [here] It's fun to shoot friend's wedding, as opposed to other wedding assignments i usually do. Simply because you can relate to the couple more. Normally i work alone, therefore i drive myself. But today i have Lien fetched me from bride's house to groom's house, and it was extremely helpful because Stanley mentioned that i must take more photos of the car...i shot alot of frames leaning out of Lien's car window on the road, dangerous but fun fun fun ! Teaser : The classical zoom burst effect PS : Anyone in Sibu saw us on the street this morning? :P This is his wedding car for the special day, damn chun, i think it's called evo something (sorry i don't know much about cars, but erhmm, nice color?) Still have banquet to cover at night, i am going to bed now (it's 12.35pm) to get some nap, perhaps regain some energy for later on. “昏”纱 Wednesday, June 11, 2008, 6:56 PM 6 comments Desmond and Ivy [Bridal] Finally completed this set... Many many more to come....(please dont rush me, 慢工出细活, :P) Stressing out 1:00 PM 3 comments I am stressing out now. I have so much to do, but instead of completing the tasks, i am sitting here blogging.-_- There are alot of things going on, and i am planning something which i can't quite tell you yet, (when the time is near i will), and i hope eventually everything turns out right. And lately i've been contemplating whether it's possible for me to go back to school and study more. Perhaps i can still work freelance to earn the tuition fee? Who knows. Perhaps i can study art, photography or even language (which i've always wanted to do). Or maybe, i can pick up where i left off, go back and study GD instead (maybe i'll like it this time? LOL) Maybe i'll start saving money now instead of spending all i have ALL THE FREAKING TIME. My passion rarely goes away if i truly like something, sometimes i switch simply because i've made the wrong choice. In life, it's all about choices. I'm still young, i am allowed to make choices. I should probably savor the priviledge. So why am i wasting my time? What is holding me back? I guess you know. 他们“应该”知道 Tuesday, June 10, 2008, 7:32 AM 5 comments 昨天我们和Frankie他们打羽球了，通常我们是打2,4,6的，但是因为他们那边有空档，所以我们就过去了。很巧很巧的是昨天遇到【他】了，看他的部落格也有好长一段时间了，（虽然中间他MIA过）。本来还不打算打招呼，因为只有我见过他他没有见过我，我不好意思嘛。哈哈哈。加上整身汗臭味（我想只有我亲爱的羽球朋友们才能忍受吧）。后来因为Andrew太太太八卦了，压抑不住，所以走前去自我介绍，后来我们才打招呼。他真人样子很baby face, 比实际年龄小许多。看起来算是蛮健谈的一个男生吧。有时候可能人家知道你是他们的blog reader, 所以没有什么好隐瞒的吧？ Anyway, it was very nice meeting you, Huai Bin. ;) 继续～打玩两场羽球后， Paul和他的女朋友不知怎的吵了起来。 Paul应该是不爽他女朋友很多粒开的球都接不到吧？一直不断的在旁边碎碎念，说什么“我教你你就要听”的话。他女朋友应该是生气了吧，东西一拿就走了。当我们打好之后驾车离开一段路，半路看到他女朋友在走路回家。那时候天色蛮暗了，我就告诉Andrew叫他打电话给Paul告诉他一声，然后Andrew就回答我了： “不用吧，他们应该知道了。” 他就是那样子的一个人。我静止了一会儿，然后问他：“我可以和你说一些人生道理吗？” (imagine a 23 year old preaching a 33 year old) 他点头。 “你知道就因为你一句话，如果那女孩出了什么事情，你会愧疚一辈子的。有很多时候，我们只需要做很简单的一件事情，就能避免意外发生了，为什么不呢？就算他们真的也是知道了，我们也只是打个电话，求个心安理得而已。现在治安那么坏，她一个女生要是在路上发生什么事情，我们如何对得起自己的良心？” 他点头，说是是是（不甘愿的说法），然后才播电话。我知道他还是不认同我，这只是为了避免接下来更多的争执，所以他才会打电话。我多么希望他明白我为什么会执着。不过看来要他了解我的想法，比登天还难。有时候我们就是因为袖手旁观，所以引发了很多意外。其实大部分时间我们只是需要做很简单的一些事情，就能够避免了，可是我们整天以为：“人家知道了”。所以没有去做，没有去说。东窗事发后， who's to blame? 虚拟的爱情 Friday, June 6, 2008, 8:49 AM 4 comments 虚拟世界的爱情，信得通吗？我不能了解，没有见过面的，顶多也算是fling吧？算是relationship吗？网上谈恋爱已经不出奇了，现在还有人用电话来和另一头的人“谈恋爱”，完全没有见过面就称彼此为“宝贝， honey, sweetheart" 之类的了，真是无奇不有。我身边有一位朋友，就有如此的经历。你不要以为我这位朋友条件不好，所以才用电话来谈恋爱，他的条件远比现在很多男生都好多了。外貌不但出色，有稳定的工作（帮爸爸打工的），性格良好，无不良嗜好。年龄比我小些，大概20岁出头吧。但是没有现代年轻人的浮夸，有礼貌，有风度，一等一的好青年。他和这位没有见过面的女生用电话来谈恋爱大概也有一段时间了吧！和我们一起的大部分时间，他都是不断的在sms的，很多时候他都是接了电话，或者是看了讯息，会突然变得很郁闷很伤心的样子。我们猜想他是和电话另一头的那个“她”吵架吧！我不明白的是，这段“电话恋情”，为何杀伤力那么大？面都还没有见过就把这份感情看得那么重？如果见面了发现她并不如你所想象的怎么办呢？分手吗？我也曾经问过他，为什么没有把人家约出来。他说他也很努力的想要说服这位女生出来见面，大概是她还不想见他吧。为什么呢？你都把人家当男朋友了。。。还不能够见面要等什么时候哦？？如果她一辈子都不出来和你见面，怎么办呢？总不能透过电话结婚吧？这样子虚拟的爱情，算是“真正”的爱情吗? I don't get it.